Venting.

myViiBE: [[You Know What - N.E.R.D.]]

So....right now it feels like my life is taking a turn for the worst. I've debated whether or not I should put myself on blast like this....but it seems somewhat appropriate, considering there's a lot of people in my shoes right now, and nobody understands what they're going through.

The basic jist of this story is that my family and I are at the brink of losing our house to that evil demon called foreclosure. It makes me want to cry, because one minute I'm thinking of how I want to redecorate my room, and the next I'm thinking "trailer park, or half-destroyed apartment?"

Wow....

My mother is a single parent, with four children. My dad....is undeserving of respect. And that's putting it in the nicest terms I can really muster right now.

There are so many thoughts going through my head right now....where will we live? where can the kids have a good school? will my somewhat juvinille-delinquent brother decide to stay with us, or leave? will we even survive?

Who can we even turn to right now? I mean....does anyone even care? There are so many people involved in their own problems, or holding some kind of disgruntled and hidden disposition against you that you can never know who's a friend and who is an enemy.


Believe me.....we've been to hell and back before, and frankly, I'm getting quite tired of going there.

I can't wait to get my business up and running, because I know for a fact I'll fight for people who constantly fight the same greviances that my family and I have struggled with all our lives.

So....Dang....AUGGGHHHH!!

myViiBE: [[frustrated, so nada.]]

If I had a freakin dime for everytime my mom and I didn't see eye to eye...I'd save America from this b.s. economic crisis!!!

I mean GEEZ! Who said I wanted to marry him?!?! Who said we were dating?!?!??!?!!?!?

Okay, to give you guys the filler-inner, I'm Nigerian. In my culture it is sometimes customary for family friends to ask for a child (mainly a female child) as a marriage partner for their other child (usually the male child). They don't ask the child, mind you. They ask the parents. This is the case with me. To top it all off, I've never seen this guy in my LIFE. No idea who he is, and we've been raised in two totally different cultures! He's in Nigeria, and I'm here!!!

That really isn't the worst part. I mean hey, I may never see this guy. EVER. The worst part is that I've got this guy who's like, my best friend, and yeah, there's feelings there but I'm not pursuing them cuz he's not pursuing them. We may look like we're dating, but really, we're not.

HOWEVER, my mother today told me that I should stop throwing myself at him. That I know that her friend wants me to marry her son and that I'M making it look like me and my bestie are dating....I mean WTF?!! You're kidding me, right?!?

That...was...SO....ludicrous. I was pissed.

And, I didn't even get to the County Clerk's office....so my business is still on "figment of the mind" status.

I'm supposed to be doing college research right now, but I'm pooped. Yale, give me five minutes, won't you?

GAH. I just want to.....

roll over
cry
die
scream
start my business and get GOING
blekyah.

LOL! If you can relate, do say so.

Deucesss.

Awwwrrriiiittteeee.....

myViiBE: [[Remember Me-T.I.P]]

I am SO LATE. Life's been a --- cuz I haven't dressed her right. Well....at least that's what Kanye said it was. This past week has been crazy turmoil, from me thinking someone had hacked my beloved baby (laptop, loves) to wanting to get OUT of this house, to recieving a prophetic epiphany about my future. It's been a RIDE. Luckily though, I stay on my grind all day [[behbeh]] and I'm getting ready to have SPK up and running. I'm UBERexcited for this, because it's been long in coming!!! I told myself I'd be "legally correct" by now with this whole biz thing....but I'm running just a tad bit late.....

Anyway, for now I'll leave it here. If I have anymore of a conundrum I'll come and rant about it lateron tonight.

Back to the ol' GRiiND, chixx n trixx :]

Deuces.

So....

myViiBE: [[Coldest Winter-Kanyevil :} ]]

"Memories made in the coldest winter..."

I've had that song reference a relationship before. I love this song, but when I think back, it brings up some tearjerkers. Ha!

Anyway, I don't think I'll be able to get around the whole "18 to start Nonprofit" clause...so I might just have to go the route of a business. :/ Not really what I wanted, but I still have to talk with a professional to lay out all the details.

We shall overcome!!!

Deucesssssss, loves.

DANG!

myViiBE: [[Remeber Me-T.I.]]

Well, just found out that I've got to be 18 to establish a nonprofit in Texas.....hm.

I'mma find a way to work this out.

Deuces.

Flashback of Day II

myViiBE: [[Untouched-Veronicas]]

Today I FINALLY remembered to call the business office and get the steps necessary to get Speak off the ground! I was glad I did it, because I found out that I had to journey back to the wonderful world of the internet to get what I needed done. Joy.

Anyway, I'm on right now seeing what's needed to get myself started.

Ignore the blandness, loves. I'll get this baby up and running in no time.

CHuNKiiN da DEUCE :]

First and OFFICIAL

myViiBE: [[nadaa]]

Alright lovesss,

This is my first post! Yeah I know kinda bland looking and basic (c'mon, cut me a break, it's midnight!) but it's only a filler for future plans. You'll find a lot on my blog - mainly SpeakCharity stuff, but also what I'm going through with the balance of work, school, family, and my social life.

;] enjoy!