Christians are NOT Crazy!

myViiBE: [[biology lecture :/]]

So I logged on to the CW the other day and I was SO EXCITED to catch the eps I've missed of ANTM. I think it's so cool the boundaries that Tyra likes to step over with the show...and I tend to find their antics quite entertaining. This season got me even more excited, however, because of the fact that all of her models are 5' 7" and under.

My excitement keeled over and died when I saw the "Christian" that they decided to choose for this season. The crazy chick was a cross between a college freshman out for spring break on Miami Beach and a Jehovah's Witness on friggin STEROIDS. Gah....I felt so ashamed and I thought to myself "why does Hollywood only pick the Christians who are absolutely zonkers?"

Watch ANTM's "christian girl" here.

We've seen the splatters of crazy Christians all over Hollywood, from those that they invite to "preach" on various reality shows to the mom who literally kicked the camera crew out of her house for being "of satan".

It's sad...and makes me want to get out there faster so I can say "HEY, here's a Christian face that's NOT about to spaz like a maniac".

I was in church the other day (I absolutely LOVE my church [[Covenant]], they've helped me to grow SO MUCH and they DON'T try to shove their beliefs down my throat.) and I realized that we are supposed to be an example for our generation and frankly, none of us have been doing a great job.

Therefore I am dedicating myself to the change. I don't want to force people to convert. I don't want to SCREAM about how much "I love Jesus!!!" to Tyra Banks and National Television (If you watched the video you'd get what I meant), but I do want to set an example, so that people can look at me and be like "wow...that's a Christian?!"

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On a lighter note, so much has happened for SpeakCharity it's crazy! I'll have more on that later :]

Deucesssss, Loves!

ii SHALL oVeRCoMeee....

myViiBE: [[Rebirth of Slick - Digable Planets]]

So, the first week of school....

major craziness, man! I mean geez, I did not expect to end the week with so much friggin drama. I mean DANG thank you classmates for emphasizing the fact that I'm still surrounded by HIGH SCHOOLERS.

Here's how it allll went down:

Started the week real chill, everyone was good, no drama or nothin....
Come Wed. we have a Student Government meeting, and all of a sudden people wanna be persnickety about their ideas....which ends up with a big blowout by yours truly.
The next day was full of freakin tension....I didn't even really talk to the people who were part of it.
Friday everything gets blown up in my face: from one person sayin they're quitting, to another feeling insecure about me telling the truth, to the rest talking about how dang mean I seem to be.

It...
Was...
Ridiculous.

I mean dang, that brought back insecurities that I hadn't even wrestled with since Sophomore year! Stuff that I felt I was totally past.

Like I said, ridiculous.

And to top it all off, the day I thought I would have free to do what I needed to do for SPK (acronym for my company, loves...) is taken away from me because the school's admin feel that we actually need to come to school that day.

NOBODY ELSE IS IN SCHOOL RIGHT NOW BUT US!!!

ugh....bogus.

I'm gonna find a way to work through this. With the Lord's strength, I will be victor.

Like I said- I shall overcome.

Woot Woot!!!

Wow....

so THANK YOU so much to whoever said they were vibin'!

Confidence MAJOR!!!

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I figured out how to do a lot of stuff to my blog (after taking time to actually EXPLORE my settings, haha!) so now ANYONE can leave a comment, and you don't even have to subscribe (although I would love it if you did).

Anyway, my first day back at school was quite eventful....thrilling, even. It was fairly easy (since my actual COLLEGE classes don't start until the 24th). It was kinda like chill time with my buds, which I love. I totally forgot to bring my memory card, however....so we were at a loss in terms of vids/pics.

It's all good though, because tomorrow is a new day.

Too bad it's not a free day though. I'm so SWAMPED with work it's ridiculous.

I will survive loves, I will survive.

I'm off to create some new designs for Speak, jam to some beats, and plan out the rest of my life [[kidding, more like the rest of senior year :P]]

Deucesssssss, lovessssss.

Trying to Stand Strong

Staring at my screen
Looking at the zeros
Thinking of ways to enhance
Make better

I wish to touch lives.

I know this is not impossible. I know I am new at this....a fresh chip off the ol' block, if you will. But DANG I would love to see something from someone who felt touched enough to leave a comment. That would be abso-fabuloso.

Ha! However, I can be patient, and patient I will be.

Patience is a funny thing though, because it seems to elude me in a lot of situations. I just thank God for the grace to hold my tongue and be patient. It's helped me to avoid many argumentative confrontations with mother dearest.

Anywayyyyssss, I'm going to be adding something totally new to my blog....vids of my friends at school! (like eps of our lil mini-series we're doing) Believe me, it will be a LOT better than what it sounds like right now (it's 2 in the morning, cut me some slack! lol)

Mk Chixx n Trixx, be blessed.

I would go more in depth but my eyelids are being uncooperative haha!

[[iiNCReDiiBLe]]

It's crazy how a weekend can change your life.

I've realized the biggest problem with this blog is that all I'm doing is glorifying myself.

Though the pivotal point of this blog is to follow the journey of my company's growth, I should not be the all-inclusive focus.

I mean.....I went to a new church on Sunday, because there was a lot of controversial stuff going on [[it's horrible when the person you rely on to be your spiritual guide and an extra supporter is actually stabbing you in the back and slapping you in the face....]]. The controversy made me leave, and I took my siblings to visit this church that was just off the highway called Covenant Church.

Instantly I noticed a difference in the overall atmosphere. You could tell that most of the people there were there to genuinely worship God. I had already visited the adult service, so I decided to try the Youth. You can imagine my anxiety [[especially if you are a youth yourself]] because it is incredibly hard to fit in [[talkless of being accepted]] by a group of youth you've never met before. Instead of focusing on that, though, I focused on coming in and worshipping God.

It was AMAZING.

I just feel so....changed! It's incredible, I mean to be able to be touched by God, to spend two hours with people who love him just as much as I do and WORSHIP in all truthfulness....to get things revealed to me that just confirm their truth [[because I've heard them before]]....like I said, simply amazing.

While on my way home I realized that this was the perfect outlet to talk about what I'm going through in my Christian faith [[and to keep me on my toes]]. Even if you're reading this and you aren't a Christian, maybe you can relate to the dedication of your faith...or, if you know God, can find a balance through my experiences.

Be blessed, loves.

Deucessssss.

Venting.

myViiBE: [[You Know What - N.E.R.D.]]

So....right now it feels like my life is taking a turn for the worst. I've debated whether or not I should put myself on blast like this....but it seems somewhat appropriate, considering there's a lot of people in my shoes right now, and nobody understands what they're going through.

The basic jist of this story is that my family and I are at the brink of losing our house to that evil demon called foreclosure. It makes me want to cry, because one minute I'm thinking of how I want to redecorate my room, and the next I'm thinking "trailer park, or half-destroyed apartment?"

Wow....

My mother is a single parent, with four children. My dad....is undeserving of respect. And that's putting it in the nicest terms I can really muster right now.

There are so many thoughts going through my head right now....where will we live? where can the kids have a good school? will my somewhat juvinille-delinquent brother decide to stay with us, or leave? will we even survive?

Who can we even turn to right now? I mean....does anyone even care? There are so many people involved in their own problems, or holding some kind of disgruntled and hidden disposition against you that you can never know who's a friend and who is an enemy.


Believe me.....we've been to hell and back before, and frankly, I'm getting quite tired of going there.

I can't wait to get my business up and running, because I know for a fact I'll fight for people who constantly fight the same greviances that my family and I have struggled with all our lives.

So....Dang....AUGGGHHHH!!

myViiBE: [[frustrated, so nada.]]

If I had a freakin dime for everytime my mom and I didn't see eye to eye...I'd save America from this b.s. economic crisis!!!

I mean GEEZ! Who said I wanted to marry him?!?! Who said we were dating?!?!??!?!!?!?

Okay, to give you guys the filler-inner, I'm Nigerian. In my culture it is sometimes customary for family friends to ask for a child (mainly a female child) as a marriage partner for their other child (usually the male child). They don't ask the child, mind you. They ask the parents. This is the case with me. To top it all off, I've never seen this guy in my LIFE. No idea who he is, and we've been raised in two totally different cultures! He's in Nigeria, and I'm here!!!

That really isn't the worst part. I mean hey, I may never see this guy. EVER. The worst part is that I've got this guy who's like, my best friend, and yeah, there's feelings there but I'm not pursuing them cuz he's not pursuing them. We may look like we're dating, but really, we're not.

HOWEVER, my mother today told me that I should stop throwing myself at him. That I know that her friend wants me to marry her son and that I'M making it look like me and my bestie are dating....I mean WTF?!! You're kidding me, right?!?

That...was...SO....ludicrous. I was pissed.

And, I didn't even get to the County Clerk's office....so my business is still on "figment of the mind" status.

I'm supposed to be doing college research right now, but I'm pooped. Yale, give me five minutes, won't you?

GAH. I just want to.....

roll over
cry
die
scream
start my business and get GOING
blekyah.

LOL! If you can relate, do say so.

Deucesss.

Awwwrrriiiittteeee.....

myViiBE: [[Remember Me-T.I.P]]

I am SO LATE. Life's been a --- cuz I haven't dressed her right. Well....at least that's what Kanye said it was. This past week has been crazy turmoil, from me thinking someone had hacked my beloved baby (laptop, loves) to wanting to get OUT of this house, to recieving a prophetic epiphany about my future. It's been a RIDE. Luckily though, I stay on my grind all day [[behbeh]] and I'm getting ready to have SPK up and running. I'm UBERexcited for this, because it's been long in coming!!! I told myself I'd be "legally correct" by now with this whole biz thing....but I'm running just a tad bit late.....

Anyway, for now I'll leave it here. If I have anymore of a conundrum I'll come and rant about it lateron tonight.

Back to the ol' GRiiND, chixx n trixx :]

Deuces.

So....

myViiBE: [[Coldest Winter-Kanyevil :} ]]

"Memories made in the coldest winter..."

I've had that song reference a relationship before. I love this song, but when I think back, it brings up some tearjerkers. Ha!

Anyway, I don't think I'll be able to get around the whole "18 to start Nonprofit" clause...so I might just have to go the route of a business. :/ Not really what I wanted, but I still have to talk with a professional to lay out all the details.

We shall overcome!!!

Deucesssssss, loves.

DANG!

myViiBE: [[Remeber Me-T.I.]]

Well, just found out that I've got to be 18 to establish a nonprofit in Texas.....hm.

I'mma find a way to work this out.

Deuces.

Flashback of Day II

myViiBE: [[Untouched-Veronicas]]

Today I FINALLY remembered to call the business office and get the steps necessary to get Speak off the ground! I was glad I did it, because I found out that I had to journey back to the wonderful world of the internet to get what I needed done. Joy.

Anyway, I'm on right now seeing what's needed to get myself started.

Ignore the blandness, loves. I'll get this baby up and running in no time.

CHuNKiiN da DEUCE :]

First and OFFICIAL

myViiBE: [[nadaa]]

Alright lovesss,

This is my first post! Yeah I know kinda bland looking and basic (c'mon, cut me a break, it's midnight!) but it's only a filler for future plans. You'll find a lot on my blog - mainly SpeakCharity stuff, but also what I'm going through with the balance of work, school, family, and my social life.

;] enjoy!