Feeling So Frustrated

A month ago. A MONTH AGO is when I could have had the application submitted.

Then, as of RIGHT NOW SpeakCharity would be IN THE RUNNING to win that $50,000 grant, instead of waiting on the sidelines for June 1st. I mean ugh what is the MATTER with me?? I told myself to do that grant app a LONG time ago! I just didn't follow through. Sigh.

I prolly shouldn't beat myself up for it though. I could have expected this to happen....I mean, Pepsi isn't exactly a small name, you know? And this is just greater motivation for me, for Speak, to be well prepared when we start running.

I can also put Speak up for other grants and stuff....you know, this may not be all that bad.

Lord God, you haven't failed me or Speak yet. So how's about I just hand you this one and see where we go next?

I think that sounds dandy.

Moving With Purpose

I sat at the bus station staring at the Honda logo that blocked my vision of the sky. Its shiny chrome curves and razor sharp edges glistened in the sunlight, laughing, nearly mocking me.

It's funny, because the bus I was waiting for was the one that would take me to my 2003 Honda Accord - my Maximus, my baby.

"We'll see who's laughing once my foot hits that pedal," I thought to myself, as the bus sped down the road, bringing me closer to the car I never thought I'd have.

It's funny the curveballs life throws at you. If anyone had told me a year ago that I would be driving this sleek windbreaker, hosting a successful fashion show, and preparing for a semi-nationwide fashion show tour, I would have told them they'd lost their minds.

However, here I stand, doing just that.

I'll admit, sometimes life is hard, and throws things at me that I wish I could smack right back....but I'm grateful for them. They've made me who I am, and brought me people I'll cherish for life.

As of right now, myself and my new partner-brother Oscar are working towards getting everything ready for the Speak Tour. It's going to be epic, and I'm so excited I could just explode.

A week ago I would have been scared spitless to be doing something this incredible. However, after having a fashion show that was almost nearly IMPOSSIBLE, I can take on the world.

Not think I can, but I CAN.

Look out world. SpeakCharity's Coming (and Rebecca's pulling the reins).